You know, occasionally, I may smile at you. Or even small talk. And no, it will not be your lucky day; it will be mine. Days when I feel light are not rare. However, happiness is. Fun fact: I cannot stop making small circles in the inside of my wrist. The doctor says it’s due to my anxiety. My dad says it’s in my head. My mom doesn’t even acknowledge this behaviour. But I know why. The reason for drawing clouds in cursive on them is simply to distract my thoughts. Or maybe it’s all bullshit and the people around me are right. The only thing I am certain of is that it calms me. It helps me communicate with people and most importantly, it helps me hide how messed up my head is.